I have so much in my head.
My Christmas wish list. The one that I make every single year, but don't really expect anything off of the list to appear underneath the tree.
I realized yesterday that I share the same birthday as my Grandma M. Of course, I've always known that, but I realized that now I sort of have that day all to myself. For years she told me that I was her favorite birthday present and now she's gone.
I took a long, hard look at how I feel after the second half of a couple dies and found out that I just don't feel as sad when I know that the one left behind is no longer left behind. I found this out several years ago when I had two "adopted" sets of grandparents die years apart. I pictured them reuniting in Heaven. I wish I could've felt this way when my Grandma D passed away after suffering with cancer, but I didn't. I also think my reaction to someone dying is a lot worse when they've been sick and didn't die of complications from getting older.
The homeschool dilemma. I'm almost completely sure that this decision is made, but it still weighs heavily on my mind.
And then there's a big thing that I'm not going to talk about.
Big Daddy is going on a week-long trip soon. I've never been alone with both kids for this long and I know they are both (and me too!) going to miss him so much. The most we've ever been apart is the thirteen days that he was in Italy and I remember how confusing it was for Maggie. Ellie has never been away from her Daddy for so long.
And there's more, but I need to do something more productive like prepare for my Awana class tonight,
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