Things Change

We had our first day back at K.indermusik yesterday. It was lots of fun! Two of our K.indermusik friends (both boys) have baby brothers that tag along. J is 4 months old and N is one month old. Yesterday after class The Muffin insisted on visiting with both babies. I had given baby N his paci during class when he started waking from his nap. He sat in his little car seat and went back to sleep even though we were making so much noise all around him. He started to wake up after class and Muff tickled his feet. She always talks about tickling our baby, so that's her thing. Baby J is at the stage where he laughs, smiles and giggles at everything. Muff wouldn't do her "baby talk" like she does to my belly, but she tickled his head.

Last night she told me that she wanted a baby like N or J. Then she said that I had J in my belly and that she had N in her belly and that they would grow "big and strong" and come out soon. Maybe she's open to having a boy now???

I really can't stress how neutral I am on gender. I get SO excited about either one. Two girls would be fun, they could dress alike, have girly toys and then there's the hair bows and all of the squealing! A boy and a girl would be cute too. I think they'd be more protective of one another and I'd definitely feel more comfortable with Big Daddy sharing his love of firearms and fighting! Yesterday a K.indermusik parent asked "what we wanted". I'm sure most people say it doesn't matter, but I could never be more sure of how much it doesn't matter. I guess you could say that I've never been more unsure of anything in my life...whether I'd want a boy or a girl if I could pick. I really like being so unsure!

Hopefully, I'll be letting everyone know what "it" is on Thursday!